I know it has been a while, but life has just gotten in the way. So many things have gone on since I last wrote that it is too overwhelming to put down in words here. But I have thoughts to share now and have been ruminating and will continue to ruminate and share as I process.
I have really been thoughtful about my health lately. I have been taking notice of when I feel better and when I don’t. I have been taking notice of when I am happiest and when I am not. And I have been trying to process, how can I be happy and healthy at the same time? Because let’s be honest, sometimes being healthy constantly doesn’t mean you are happy.
I am trying to find the balance. I am also trying to figure out why the rate of obesity continues to rise in America. I know I have gained plenty of weight since I got married, and am on the verge of my BMI stating Obese. I want to know, what makes living a healthy lifestyle so inaccessible?
I have so many thoughts I want to share, but I just wanted to introduce my next series of thoughts before I just threw you in the deep end. I am really excited to share and hopefully learn along the way. If you have thoughts that you want to share on anything I post, or if you have stories to share, I would love to hear from you! Please reach out or comment along the way! Maybe we can figure this out together?
Thanks for reading!
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Alright, so I did stick to it today. I went for a run even though I really did not want to in the rain. But I ran and of course by the time I got home it had stopped raining. Just my luck.
My shoes and leggings were a wee bit drenched by the time I was done but I got my run in!
I have this pin on pinterest that I think about all the time and it was especially key today.
You can’t wait for that perfect day to go running. Here in Colorado I am pretty lucky and have many days of sunshine but even then they aren’t always perfect for a run. It is either too hot, there is rain, there is snow, and so many other excuses I give myself so that I can make myself feel better about not running. That is so stupid. Just because it isn’t perfect conditions doesn’t mean you will have a horrible run. Some of the best runs I have ever had have been in less than ideal conditions!
Anyway, I’m off my little soap box now.
I also may have splurged just a little. I was craving brats and beans for lunch. I could not get that flavor out of my mind. So, after my run I went to the store and bought some. I also grabbed some berries and my splurge, which was a small container of Egg Nog. Oh man, guys, my weakness this time of year is definitely Egg Nog. I love it so much! I really really do!
I added in a little cheese with my brats and beans but washed it all down with lime water!
I know, I know, not my healthiest day. So far, no soda even though Sonic is right across the street from where I run and I was so tempted. It is the little life changes. I am just trying to take it a step at a time in my quest for healthiness. I don’t want to make posts that make you think I am anything more than I am. I am definitely going to struggle through this. I am definitely going to struggle to make wise food and exercise decisions. But I am determined to be healthier and not feel like a blob anymore!
Keep it up!
And just like that we are at the end of October… Oh geez…
Where has this year gone?! I feel like I just went on a camping trip and next thing I realize that was over 2 months ago! What?! I had all these hopes of losing a decent amount weight before my friends wedding two weeks ago. That didn’t happen lol!
I am going to have an honest and raw moment with you guys. I have gained 30lbs. since my wedding day and I have even gained weight since August! I tried to put a dress on last night that I had worn in August to a friend’s bridal shower. Yeah, it did not end up fitting very well. I got it on but not well! That was a huge wake up call for me. I have never noticed a change that affected my immediate clothes that dramatically. I have worn that dress once so it isn’t like it shrunk or anything.
That being said, I am vowing to you as my readers and to myself that I will live a much healthier lifestyle from here on out! Ski season is coming and in my current condition, I will not be able to really enjoy myself or push as hard as I want to. That is unacceptable. I have dreams of running races, long long races. I can’t do that with my current lifestyle. Something has to give.
From here on out you will most likely see more posts of me trying to achieve that healthy lifestyle I long for. You will see me playing outside and pushing myself in the outdoors. I can’t wait to share my achievements with you and my adventures as well! Hopefully some pups will go along with me so you get to see their cute faces every now and then! Lol! Faelyn is pretty cute to look at 😉
Let’s do this!
Oh man guys, has it been a long couple of weeks and it is about to get longer. Between family coming to visit, getting back to life, figuring out work stuff, skiing (yes, there was a little pleasure in the long weeks teehee), and now taking over for my other boss because she just welcomed a little one into her little family! Yay!! Life is crazy? Right? Or is it just me?
There has also been much figuring out within my marriage too. I have come to realize that marriage is a constant growing of both sides. One side can’t grow in the relationship and the other stay stagnant. People change and that in turn changes how they interact with everyone, especially the people they are closest. Sometimes the growing is in a good way! I am totally one of those people that believe that no matter what, whether you grow for good or change for not so good, I stay in a relationship. I am not getting all preachy here, just this is me. I only want to stay with one man for my lifetime. I don’t ever see divorce as an option. There are dire circumstances that it would only ever be a possibility but I don’t ever see that happening! I am head over heels for this man! Even on days when I am not, I choose to love. It may not uber romantic but it is me saying ‘I am here and here to stay.’
So that was my little relationship soapbox for the day. Haha! Wow, didn’t see that one coming out…
Right now, I am also in the midst of training for a half marathon! It is my first and I am only up to being able to run 5 miles at this point! But honestly, this is huge for me! Last year, I wasn’t even really able to run a mile! This is huge! I am so determined and it feels so good! I will keep you updated as my training continues!
Guys, the last couple days have been exhausting. I think I am gonna hit the hay!
See you tomorrow!
Well hello there! Can you believe we are already part of the way through January?! Sometimes I feel like January is the fastest month ever! I was just having trouble believing it was 2015 let alone January! Haha!
Did you guys make new years resolutions? If so, how are they going?! Is anyone having as much trouble as I am keeping up with them?!
We are only 19 days in and those having not been my best days thus far. I was going about it at a different approach than last year and I feel like it is not the best approach. You know what I mean? So, I am going to adjust that starting this week. I have high hopes for this year! I have changes I want to make and I am fairly determined to get them done!
Yes, some of them are physical, you know lose this amount of weight and so on. But some of it is also just for my own mental and spiritual health. I want to become an overall better person this year! I want to grow and become happier in 2015!
Here is to a new year for all of us! Here is to a happier and healthier new you!
In case you guys haven’t heard, I am no savant. I am no genius. I really just am not great at a pretty decent amount of things. Now before you get all, “Ashley, don’t be so hard on yourself.” I am not being a Debbie Downer here. Just being honest. I have my faults just like everyone else! There are things I am halfway decent at and there are things I am not. It happens. Welcome to life!
Things I Wish I Was Better At:
~ Eating healthy. I am terrible at eating healthy. I am currently sitting here eating Moose Munch which is caramel corn and chocolate cover caramel corn mixed together. I love me some chocolate and I love me some caramel. I have a major sweet tooth which I try to subdue with berries or other fruit as often as I can but honestly, I just love sweets! I also love salt. Lots and lots of it! I have gotten better about not eating as much but I still just love it!
~ Working out. Or even just being more active. I would much rather just sit on the couch and watch Gilmore Girls while eating Ice Cream. You feel me? Why can’t that be exercising? Why can’t you burn more calories reaching for the remote? I mean for real, I just think we should work on that.
~ Cleaning the house. I am not bad at picking things up, such as laundry to put in the hamper. But honestly, I am terrible at vacuuming and dusting and mopping. I do not enjoy it so I avoid it as long as possible. Being married has made me try a little harder but TJ doesn’t mind so oftentimes he will get to it before I do.
~ Cooking. My food doesn’t taste terrible. I mean some recipes have just not worked out, but the majority has been relatively delicious. I mean I am terrible at mustering up the energy to make food. (Remember the couch scenario from above?) I just do not want to make food sometimes! I would much rather sit on my bum than stand in the kitchen and prepare a meal after working all day.
What do you wish you were better at?
I always love Sundays. Lately, TJ has had to work all day on Sundays and so it has become my day to catch up on life from the previous week or weeks. Lol. I will admit, not nearly as easy as it sounds. I realize that I let alot of things go when I get busy throughout the week. I don’t make dinners as much. I don’t do as much laundry or the dishes. I don’t read as much. I don’t knit as much. I don’t work on projects that I have been wanting to do for awhile. It just gets pushed to the side. So, Sunday has become the day I get to focus on the things that I want or need to focus on. Not necessarily errands or anything. Those I can do on my way home from work each day. No, this is stuff that I don’t usually have time to think about during the week. It helps me start my week off on the right track.
It is a day of productivity. A day of rejuvenation. A day where I feel like me the most. I day when I can take things at my pace and get things done the way I want to get things done. I love it. I woke up with a sense of purpose this morning and it was awesome.
I feel like I’m rambling. But today, I got up and did some reading. I borrowed a whole bunch of books from my brother so I am desperately trying to read them. Lol. Then I took Faelyn and we went for a walk/jog this morning. It was a beautiful day, so I had to get outside. I did not run as much as I wanted because I slammed my right knee into a handhold yesterday while climbing in the gym. But I was able to get it moving again and that was good.
I have come to realize I am a little heavier than I would like to be. I also tried on some dresses last night and wasn’t thrilled with my current state as shown in the mirror. So, hence the reason for going out today. I also downloaded the MyFitnessPal App to work in conjunction with the RunKeeper App. That way I know my calorie intake as well as how much I am running. I will most likely really start focusing on that tomorrow. But I am determined to get back in shape. I have been looking at healthier options for food too. I have a really bad sweet tooth as well I just love food! So, I want to find a way to be healthy about it. So here goes my journey!
TJ and I have the day off together again tomorrow. I think we might go hike around the Flat Irons near Boulder and spend the day up there. Should be fun! Gotta keep both of us active! I miss date days with my man, so that should be great tomorrow!
I also really need to work on my halloween costume for work! I can’t believe it is only a couple days away.
Hope you’re having a great weekend!